MENTAL HEALTH POST! ICK ICK ICK! RUN AWAY! UNCOMFORTABLE EMOTIONS! EW EW EW EW!!!! Now that those people are gone, let's fucking rock n' roll because we ROCK.
Some of us, we know who we are, are having a hard time. It may be mental health or job related or family. It may feel like all of those things all at once.
Wanna know the reason I'm being all door-to-door saleswoman about HEALTH! Yea? Because it's keeping me going. One positive choice I make every day is to wake up and deal with feeling like crap. And BOY! Do I feel like crap! My appointment with my doctor isn't until next week and I've been waiting nearly a month for it.
How my depression is working right now is attempting to destroy every bit of my self worth and image. Like an evil Jesus in the temple knocking over tables. So EVERY CHOICE I MAKE is positive. I'm choosing to live feeling miserable because every other choice is negative. I choose to get dressed. I chose to walk my dog. I even go above and beyond and choose to eat vegetables and walk my dog some extra blocks because frankly, it can't fucking make things worse, can it?!?!
So my fellow holding-on-ers, make your choices to keep going. Make your choice to go further. WE'RE THE FUCKING GLADIATORS!!!
WE'RE THE ONES FIGHTING BACK THE DARKNESS THAT NO ONE ELSE SEES! WE'RE THE ONE WITH THE PURPLE HEARTS AND GOLD MEDALS!!!! WE'RE BATTLING THE FUCKING WAR AND WE'RE GOING TO WIN! WHY? BECAUSE NOT WINNING IS NOT AN OPTION!