My homework for the therapist is to say positive things about myself and not judge the feelings I have when I say them. Words can't describe how stupid this makes me feel. I know I'm supposed to fake it til I make it but it just feels so impossible to ever come close to believing good things about myself. Furthermore, I've never felt good enough because I am not perfect in all aspects of my life. I'm supposed to learn to be okay with that. Again I don't see that happening any time soon. I think I just feel like no one will ever give a shit about me because I'm not some super attractive woman. And no matter what I do that will always be what people notice about me first. But I'll try to say positive things about myself. I just don't know if I'll be able to think of any I might someday be able to believe. Ugh is therapy supposed to make you feel worse? I had a really good week and now I just feel like I haven't made any progress.