It's difficult to come to full (or at least mostly full) self acceptance. I'm struggling to just love myself how I am, because I know I'll be much happier, but it's hard.

Mid-20s Is A Hard Time (TW weight)

I've always been overweight and I genuinely think it's just my body. I've been lower before, but it took some strict (read: unhealthy) food control. And when doctors finally said "you're not overweight!" I thought I'd feel accepting of myself, finally, but nope — still felt like crap. So my weight stabilized back to what it always was again, and 5 years later, I'm still there. I'm not unhealthy about my eating anymore, and I want to just be thankful for that, but it's very hard for me not to judge myself. I know that every time I go to the doctor, they're still going to tell me I'm overweight, and that gets old, but I know that being in the healthy weight range never made me happier.

This isn't just about weight — that's just what's on my mind now. It's about personality, quirks, facial features, everything. Just wish self acceptance would come more easily! It's a shame it doesn't.