Just wanted to say thanks for all of the encouragement. It really helped me get my butt there, and I'm happy I did. I took your advice and told her how I was feeling right away. We ended up talking about mostly benign stuff (like no-boudaries MIL) and I feel like I'm going to end up working well with my new therapist eventually. She's really been good about not pushing too hard and constantly reminds me that I can tell her if I don't want to talk about something or if I'm feeling too overwhelmed. I'm so happy I went now because I actually feel better and more in control of myself - pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting!

Thanks again, guys - I heart you

I really don't want to go to therapy today (UPDATE)S

I really don't want to go to therapy today (UPDATE)S

It's only my third visit with my new therapist and I'm already ready to be done. I'm too tired and I really, really don't want to talk or think about anything today. I don't feel like feeling. Plus it's so fucking cold out and it's a mile long walk.

I hate therapy, so I have never really stuck it out for more than a few months at a time. I know I need to do this, but it's too much. I just want to be fixed.

Maybe she will let me just nap for the hour.