With winter I can just wear pants and sweaters and not worry about anything. I hate summer.

I did it! I took the plunge. I ordered a bikini. I've lost 50 pounds since Janurary and although I'm still fat, I finally mustered up the courage to say Fuck It and order something I liked.

Gawd I'm nervous. What if I look like a fatty fat and wuss out? Or what if I wear it in public and someone says something? How do I get that 'I don't give as shit' attitude you guys all seem so good at? I need to embody this gif, that's what I need to do.

I need winter back!

Also, this is the bikini I ordered. Did I make a mistake? Or am I acting like an idiot? I'm voting for idiot.

I need winter back!