OMG I fucking can't with the anxiety anymore.

I have Seasonal Affective Disorder. It sucks. It is hard to treat because it pops up at a different time every year, and the one thing that really seems to help, cardio exercise, seem to be beyond me right now. Everything else seems to have varying degrees of success every year. I don't want to go on SSRIs for it, because it's temporary. I've already upped my klonopin dose for the season and I'm trying to deal. I'm seeing my shrink and my naturopathic doctor this month but fuuuuuck...I have to get this sorted out.

I'll be totally fine, and then something completely random will trigger an anxiety response, and then I'll feel like shit. Today it was trying to find something to get free shipping from vitacost.com. No big, right? WRONG! Evidently trying to find something between $13.99 and $20 is THE WORST and causes a catastrophic stress response in my fucking brain. I was fine before. Now I feel crappy.

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME BRAIN? I'M SORRY FOR WHATEVER I DID TO MAKE YOU ANGRY! PLEEEEASE STAHP!