I'm ready to change my life. This post is about a lot of things.

First of all, GroupThink just started following me four minutes ago, and I don't know what that means, but I'm flattered and sketched out?

Secondly, I should preface this post with this admission: I am 27 and I do not know how to drive. In some ways, this is the one of the biggest downfalls of my life. I can do public transportation, but in the city I live, it's not that easy. I also have a 3-year old. When I have days off from work, I want to take her to the playground or the zoo or a museum! But I can't. I can do lots of things with her, but I feel like my lack of driving makes me an inferior mom.

But that's not what this post is about! It's about my career and my future. I'm a vet tech. It's been a long road. While I like some aspects of my job (namely, the animals) I absolutely despise all of the other things: the majority of my coworkers, my FOUR bosses (I feel like Office Space sometimes; if I mess up (more often than not, I'm getting thrown under the bus for something I wasn't involved with), I have to hear it FOUR times, and the lack of appreciation....

It's all enough to where I almost had a nervous breakdown at work this week (this would have been the second time it would have happened, the first time being about year ago), and I'm SO SO GLAD I'm on a little vacation right now. There's a lot more, but I don't want to go into it. It'd take hours.

So I've been thinking about it a lot and I want to go back to college. Now, I went to college and had a semester and a couple of summer classes left when I dropped out. So I'll have to pick up all the pieces, find a school nearby and transfer, hope that most of credits make it... I'm not really worried.

But the driving thing terrifies me. I got my learners permit earlier this summer, but I've only practiced driving two or three times. I want my husband to teach me, because I trust him and I'm scared of driving, but between both our jobs and our kid, we just don't have the time.

I'm going to have to go to driving school. For some reason, being taught to drive by a complete stranger sounds really intimidating to me! Like, more intimidating than finishing my Bachelors as a 27 year old and trying for grad school!

But I have to learn to drive to get to school. My husband and I talked about it, and I think I should be able to get comfortable driving by spring, so I can enroll in summer 2015 classes.

Besides the driving thing, I want to pick up an almost entirely new career path. I love working with animals. When I was in school, I specialized in Biological Anthropology. I fucking loved it. It was so challenging and so interesting. I liked studying the behavioral patterns of humans and primates. I really fantasized about a job where I can work directly with primates, a la Jane Goodall.

As I've gotten a little older, I've learned a thing or two about ethology. I really think that is something I want to do. I just don't know this one thing: should I keep my Anthropology major and hope most of my credits tranfer, and then pursue Ethology as a masters degree? Or do I need to start from scratch, pretty much, as a Zoology major and THEN pursue a masters in Ethology?

Also, I'm scared of being in control of a large vehicle that outweighs me by thousands of pounds while there are other large vehicles sharing the road and potentially coming right towards me.

Okay, long post, thanks for putting up with it. I'm sure it's super rambley because that's how I roll. I hope it makes a little bit of sense.

Edited: I just learned that I would not have to change my major from Anthropology, probably! But I might have to consider going in for more than just a Master's. Google tells me I should consider a Doctorate. Fuck me....